The Jonez… life as Pond Scum » 2010

I think ya need your medicine…

Posted by R2 on February 28th, 2010 Read More No Comments

thus an undertow

cant say as if i missed the cycle, echoed of muddles so loud with thoughts. elephantine passels of images and judgments. bouncing wildly within my subconscious becoming my outward foe. the masses looking at me. does everyone smile like that all the time in real life. why can’t i just be normal ,without inner and outer conflict. madding in its way , unwelcome in its timing. and her, dammit her. and i know, me again, playing the jestee, i know it. hard as a rock. erotic images , more for my obsession. why can I not stop. outward laughter at myself as the reality of how truly relinquished is my semblance. where for out tho i am fucking romeo.

Posted by MistaJonez on February 26th, 2010 Read More No Comments

locking the doors again

All I did was fall. Again, the magic carpet was pulled from my feet. The ride being over. Everywhere I look a constant reminder of yet another failing. This time so much more confusing. This time just as painful as the 15 year one. Yes I did , agreed by the two it was ok, we will go with it. That day I had decided to uproot. I couldn’t wait any longer to express myself. Damn this life, I didn’t care. I knew what I wanted, needed, and longed for. Body, mind, and soul would have been completed. Finally. Imagine my surprise. Wow , well I guess all there is to say is goodbye. I’m sure someone near waltzed in and gave you what you thought is perspective. Leaving this one so not touchable out in the rain. The feelings left are ones of fear again. The people out there will do nothing but slay you. The door needs to be closed . I cant go out there. I cant even go on the the highway. Used up by another succubus needing her self esteem fix at my emotional expense. Talk to me while I rub it all back in your face daily. Let me explain in great detail why I ripped a cavernous hole in you. Better yet I want you to hear my voice as I chew on the bones of your soul. You must not be done eating till you hear my tears.